something i hate


the reallity sure is harsh, for some reason i hate how things work like you know.

i just hate when people find it easier to done but they choose the harder one, okay maybe i’m stupid but what the hell is this, are they more stupid than me i don’t want to be dragged into their stupidness, they understand what they are doing is wrong but still they do it without regret, okay there is no shame doing wrong but you know shame is choose to stay wrong. and i hate it when someone claim that they do ten even though i know they just do one, i hate it when someone force me to do something troublesome and unwanted, and for remind us all the time about what they have given or done something good to us and comes up with an argument man “you really don’t appreciate what i’ve done to you last time, you are the worst.”

man beats me, i just feel like what the …. so you don’t do it sincerely? guess i can’t expect too much on anyone like this. so that’s why sometimes i hate nice people, it doesn’t mean like that. well yeah how to put it ummm …..

in my mind i often think like this for some reason i hate being helped, i hate being treated nicely. but when it comes to reality whenever someone helped me, i just can’t reject it then i feel like i owe to this guy.

i just can’t forget someone’s kindness so easily, the truth that i don’t want to owe anyone anything, i hate being in debt, i don’t know why but i do hate,  i just hate.

and i hate umm what they often call it a friend. but sometimes when it comes to hard situation they just sacrifice their friends like it’s nothing. you know? if you watcch naruto you are sure famous with this word “those who abandon their comrades are worse than scum”  it’s just like “herbivores” must abandon their comrades to avoid predators. some kind of joke right? but this is reality. we can’t deny it, jeez world sure is cruel but for some people who have good position, and have much money so they can do whatever they want with that money this world it’s like heaven but the opposite goes to believers, they think this world is a prison yet i think so.

this world is a prison, even though i’m not that pure and spiritual yet i admire it.

those who enjoy “youth” fit any event or their surroundings to their belief system of “youth” for self-confirmation. For example, those who enjoy “youth” believe lies, secrets, sins and failures are simply the beginning of what makes “youth” interesting. and i just imply that by following “youth”, one ignores the consequences of their actions. 

really i don’t know what i’ve written, how come it ended up like this, so out of topic and still my english is such a mess right? hahaha

i don’t know if u guys get an idea about what i’m talking and mumbling :3

but still, for many things i hate but also there is something i like such as when life gets hard i try to write 😀

Keep moving forward ~

Some advice I gave to a friend that I thought would be nice to share with all of you…

“You’re holding on to the past and letting it control you. The past, both good and bad, is in the past, so leave it there. There’s nothing you can do to change it. If what you left there is meant to be yours, it will return to you. But waiting for that unknown is useless and will only cause you pain. Look at what you have today. It’s true what they say: “The present is a gift.” Be grateful for the pain because it will make you stronger. Be ambitious towards growth and making change towards something better. And recognize that you are surround by blessings, and you must embrace the blessings and new opportunities and adventures in order to truly live and keep moving forward. Allah has not created you to stand still. He has created you to keep looking and moving forward. I know this is easier said than done, but it is not impossible. So, continue to be strong in faith and mind, and go after a better future, not after a bruised and fading past.”

– Nadir Keval

My Story


Sometimes when i get hurt. i also get angry, feeling like want to be alone, be isolate, be quiet

but at the same time there are people around me who worried about me . that love me and want to see me smile

well, I have comrades, Teacher, Brothers and sisters, Father, Mother and the most important is Allah S.W.T 🙂 (our GOD)

so in the end i think life musn’t be alone and quiet because love doesn’t come once.

sometimes getting hurt teach me something precious, i learn so many experience, so many truth and lies hahaha

and if there is anyone out there who said I HATE YOU !! i will answer it like Really? HATE ME? HAHAHAHAHAHA okay I HATE ME TOO. hell no ! I’m just kidding lol

I love myself, it’s not even my business, still i will not see you as my enemy 😀

I’ll Respect people who respect me, will love them even more 🙂

The day we meet

Remember the day we met? do you remember although just a little? or am i the one who have been forgotten?

You were wearing that beautiful dress and with that, a smile that I’ll never forget. I was not even sure if you were the one. Good thing I remembered that smile, when I saw you for the very first time. It was almost an hour of waiting, for you to arrive. I ask myself is she still coming?… While I was waiting for you, I looked back during those times when we used to talk all night and had those silly conversations. I was very excited to have those special moments again but this time it is right next to you. I have waited for so long just to feel your warm embrace and to be with you even for just a week.

It was a week that we’ll never forget. We had so much laughter that we made the best memories together. Memories that we can share to our grandchildren and even to their grandchildren . A week that nobody can take from us. It was the turning point of my life. Realizing that I want to spend my whole life being with you. To the point that I just don’t want to let go.

Time has come when all that laughter are turning into dust, I was about to leave you. After a week of sleepless nights and wonderful morning together, we need to face again the reality. The reality that is keeping us apart. Facing the fact that maybe one day the odds may never want to see us together.

Our love is made up of trust and constant communication. Never holding back on each other. Having those moments, just to say good morning and just falling asleep during those nights we talk and laughed. I wish we can be together right now.. Maybe, someday we will. All I wish for is that we can still feel this way even if things had change.

Life will never tell us what will happen tomorrow, so I always remind myself how we fell in love and how we made it, against all odds.

Short Story about love and life

1741 :


A very poor man lived with his wife.

One day, his wife, who had very long hair asked him to buy her a comb for her hair to grow well and to be well-groomed.

The man felt very sorry and said no. He explained that he did not even have enough money to fix the strap of his watch he had just broken.

She did not insist on her request.

The man went to work and passed by a watch shop, sold his damaged watch at a low price and went to buy a comb for his wife.

He came home in the evening with the comb in his hand ready to give to his wife.

He was surprised when he saw his wife with a very short hair cut.

She had sold her hair and was holding a new watch band.

Tears flowed simultaneously from their eyes, not for the futility of their actions, but for the reciprocity of their love.


MORAL: To love is nothing, to be loved is something but to love and to be loved by the one you love,that is EVERYTHING. Never take love for granted.

Beautiful story. sob.sob

15 Important Life Lessons

15 Important Life Lessons

1. Don’t take yourself too seriously. Learn to laugh at your mistakes.  

2. Life is too short it to waste it on resentments, bitterness or grudges you’re holding against others.     

3. You don’t have to win every argument and fight. Sometimes it’s OK to just agree to disagree.

4. Make peace with your past – then let it go, and move on.

5. Choose to go after what brings you happiness.

6. Don’t compare yourself to others.

7. It doesn’t really matter what others think about you – just live your own life and be true to who you are.

8. Life isn’t always fair – but sometimes good things happen, too!

9. Try to ignore your feelings – and keep taking the next step.

10. Ask for what you want.

11. Don’t suffer in silence – reach out for support.

12. Everything changes.  

13. Be willing to experiment and try something new.

14. The most important thing is to love and be loved.

15. Believe that the best is yet to come.

short description about islam

“Islam is a savior.

It is the light when everything gets dark. It’s the hand that pulls you up when you fall and guides you through the bustling streets of life.

It’s food when you’re starving. It’s the smile and help of a stranger when you’re in need. It’s home.

I’ve never known a religion that bonds people so strongly.

You can be on one side of the globe and hear about the tragedy of a Muslim on the opposite side and your heart hurts because in your mind or maybe it’s your soul, you are saying,

“That’s my brother” or “That’s my sister”. Islam is family.

It creates family wherever it goes, wherever it lives. The Prophet (saws) called us his brothers and he didn’t even meet us. Time, distance, race, gender ..

none of it matters to Islam. When the adhan is called, people all over are stopping what they are doing and turning towards the same direction.

They’re all stopping their days because Allahu akbar, Allah is greater. He is the greatest. If you ever question that then you don’t understand what He’s given you. He’s given you love, endless love and distant family.

He’s given you everything you need because He is the greatest and His religion is love.”

Basically one of the most beautiful descriptions of Islam that I’ve heard courtesy of my good friend Paul.

Why Should I Marry You?

WHY SHOULD I MARRY YOU? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Once there was a very handsome, pious, well educated young man, whose parents emphasized for him to get married. They had seen so many marriage proposals, and he had turned them all down. The parents thought it was becoming a little ridiculous or suspected that he may have someone else in mind. However every time the parents left the girls house, the young man would always say ‘she’s not the one! ‘The young man only wanted a girl who was religious and practicing, however one evening his mother arranged for him, to meet a girl, who was religious, and practicing.On that evening, the young man, and girl, were left to talk, and ask each other questions. (As one would expect). The young man, being a gentleman that he was allowed, the lady to ask first. The young girl asked the young man so many questions, she asked about his life, his education, his friends, his family, his habits, his hobbies, his lifestyle, his enjoyment, his pastime, his experiences, his shoe size…… The young man replied to all of her questions, without tiring, and politely, with a smile the young girl took up nearly all of the time, over an hour, and felt bad, and asked the young man do you have any questions?

The young man said, it’s ok. I only have 3 questions…The young girl thought, Wow, ONLY 3 questions okay, shoot —————————————————-

The young man’s 1st question was,

Q1: Who do you love the most in the world, someone who’s love nothing would ever overcome?

A1: She said, this is an easy question; my mother, he smiled —————————————————-

Q2: 2nd question, he asked, you said that you read a lot of qur’an, could you tell me which surahs you know the meaning of?

A2: Hearing this she went red and embarrassed and said, I do not know the meaning of any yet, but I am hoping to soon insha’allah I’ve just been a bit busy —————————————————-

Q3: The 3rd question the young man asked, was I have been approached for my hand in marriage, by girls that are a lot more prettier than you Why should I marry you?

A3: Hearing this the young girl was outraged, she stormed off to her parents with fury, and said I do not want to marry this man he is insulting my beauty, and intelligence. And the young man and his parents, were once again, left without an agreement of marriage.This time, the young mans parents were really angry, and said what did you do to anger that girl, the family were so nice, and pleasant, and they were religious like you wanted. What did you ask the girl?? Tell us! —————————————————-

1. The young man said, firstly I asked her, who do you love the most? she said, her mother, The parents said so, what is wrong with that??The young man said, ‘no one, is Muslim, until he loves Allah, and his messenger (saw) more than anyone else in the world’If a woman loves Allah and the Prophet (pbuh) more than anyone, she will love me and respect me, and stay faithful to me, because of that love, and fear for Allah (swt). and we can share this love, because this love is greater than lust for beauty. ——————————————————

2. The young man said, then I asked, you read a lot of qur’an, can you tell me the meaning of any surah?And she said no, because I haven’t had time yet. so I thought of that hadith ‘ALL humans, are dead except for those who have knowledge’ She has lived 20 years and not found ANY time, to seek knowledge, why would I marry a woman, who does not know her rights, and responsibilities, and what will she teach my children, except how to be negligent, because the woman IS the madrasa (school) and the best of teachers. And a woman who has no time for Allah, will not have time for her husband. ————————————————

3. The third question I asked her was, that a lot of girls, more prettier than her, had approached me for marriage, why should I choose you?That is why she stormed off, getting angry. The young man’s parents said that is a horrible thing to say, why would you do such a thing, we are going back there to apologies. The young man said I said this on purpose, to test whether she could control her anger.The Prophet (saw) said ‘do not get angry, do not get angry, do not get angry’ when asked how to become pious; because anger is from Satan.If a woman cannot control her anger with a stranger she has just met, do you think she will be able to control it with her husband?? So, the moral of this story is, a marriage is based on: *knowledge, not ONLY Out Looking (Beauty) ! *practice, not preaching/recite only (million of reciter are there) ! *Forgiveness, not Anger ! *Spiritual love, not Lust ! *and CompromiseOne should look for a person who :

1) Has love for Allah (swt) and the messenger(saw)

2) Has knowledge of the deen, and can act upon it.

3) can control their anger

4) and willing to compromise

And it goes both ways, so women seeking a man, should look for the same things. Aisha’h r.a reports “one day I was on a camel which was somewhat difficult to control and the Prophet s.a.w remarked “you must be compassionate, whenever there is compassion in something it adorns it, and when it is removed from something it disgraces it”. reported by Imam bukhari(al-adab al-mufrad)