Sometimes i just feel Sad, happy, confused, a bit numb… detached about anything.
I’m not even making any sense.
I just… I want to dwell as much as i want, and just want to feel like disappear and not doing anyhing. thinking, or maybe feeling something, Just be.
Maybe lie down somewhere and just stargaze. Or sit at a quiet beach and watch the waves flirt with the shoreline. or maybe go to some city, somewhere nobody knows me and i can feel freely.
I’m just tired of always being in control but at the same time when I am faced with things beyond my control, I automatically tell myself to calm down and so I can figure things out. Never willing to relinquish control.
I hate the truth about me that the mind always wins ! Overprotective, it forgets that sometimes heart just wants to be free to feel everything, even the pain.